emo :: mood swings

Sunday, June 03, 2007, 12:53 AM

Is Heaven Creating a Prank on mi??

Went to see SYCO concert today, and saw some one i don't wanna see.. Said some mean things and gotten scolded by liYi.. it just seems that whatever i do is in the wrong like that.. no one is there to stand by me at all.. sometimes even liyi also dun wanna stand by mi... my big sis is busy so i dun wanna trouble her.. so i felt like i am all alone standing by myself.. felt sour in my heart, i may be straight forward but thats what in my mind.. at least i am frank, but it seems that whatever i sae was lik i am in the wrong.. does it means i have to keep eveything by myself?? just wanna be frank and let out everything, and its so difficult.. trying not to be emo, as i got irritated by this word "emo".. but i just feel emo, when it seems lik all is my fault.. Who will stay wit mi? who will believe mi? and why everyone can sae mi, but i cannot sae back?? WHY?? do i have to be bullied lik before?? i told myself i have to stand firm.. and no more history is going to repeat itself.. no more!! ARGH!!
went to Lao Pa Sa, and ate a Roti Muturbak which is so small and not tasty at all, and cost 5 to 6 dollars each... and cheered up a little by the drink store uncle when i ask for the drink "Whatever"..
i said: "Uncle give mi Whatever..", the uncle took a bottle of Qoo and put infront of mi.. i gave a -__-" face, paid the money and walk away with the drink laughing.. he really gave mi Whatever..

Here a pic of the drink.. LOL...

However was still quite moody.. and feeling bluez.. so took out Sherryl's hand and my hand and gave a shot... to compare the buises we had.. LOL.. stupid.. can't imagine if we really stead.. WAH KAO A!!! i will become pokadots liao ar!! She so chor lor and have hongkong legs.. sia lar.. LOL..

Till i reach home.. i still don't feel so happy.. always thought that going out with friends will free mi from stress, however words from friends is even more stressful.. i better study harder, i am lagging behind.. WHAT HAPPEN TO ME!! RAYMOND CHUA YOU ARE A STUPID PERSON, YOU ARE SO SO SO STUPID!!! GO AND DIE LAR!!! ARGH!!!!