emo :: mood swings

Thursday, April 19, 2007, 12:16 AM

"Tunder Storm"

I always believe that its not right to write too personal stuff in a blog.. because i dun feel sercure about writing my personal stuff and put them to the intenet.. so i always put those more not really so personal stuff..

Tonight i decide to update a personal story of my secondary school life... its boring stuff.. but i just feel lik typing.. so here goes..

I joined NPCC when i was secondary One, during this NPCC life for one year, my attendance was full. i Even got promoted to lance coperal (one strip), however within this one year i never felt the feeling of happiness and was not even enjoying myself, in this NPCC life i even encounted betrayer and got to know that there's no true friends in life.. because even my best friend which joined the same CCA as mi, can just break our 4years friendship.. so i even got to depression, because i cannot quit. Soon through so much crying and struggling, asking my dad to help and talk to my teacher, i got "SACK" as my teacher said there's no such thing as quit onli SACK.. so i choose to be SACK.. despite getting over with my former CCA, i still had a strong feeling in life there's not true friends..

Through many of my friends which happens to be from CO, i get to know Chinese Orchestra.. Since i have no CCA why not, i give this CCA a try... thinking that this time i have to be smarter, because this CCA may also bring mi to another depression.. thinking that my friends who recommended mi to CO may not be trusted de sia... I joined this CO, teacher-in-charge said i can choose the instrucment i want. so i wanted to try DIZI initially, however teacher said DIZI got enough ppl so i cannot play.. then i say want to try cello, he said got not enough cello for mi.. then he ask mi to take erhu.. =.=" isn't this choosing for mi?? so i take up erhu..

i shall end my episode 1 here, later part will be about mi getting to know more about my classmates which is also playing huqin... got close and meet another group of friends.. then lots of stuff happens.. happiness, sadness and .... i started to change my view about having true friends.. and then ... ... ... haiz....

if the responses is good i will update episode 2 bah, else i dun update lerr.. ^^ waste of time onli... because onli today i felt lik typing, so response not good i also dun wanna type animore.. ^^ haha..

-----end of episode 1-----

about today, suddenly i kana scolded by daniel, which made mi realise, in life i have to make a decision as soon as possible and not being wishy washy and not settling it quick.. this made him got so irritated and started shouting at mi madly when i got wishy washy about Taxi!! Hello raymond!!! WAke up, stop being wishy washy!! Be a MAN!!! I AM A MAN!! or maybe a BOY!!

when daniel started scolding mi, i saw Liyi, XingEr, Geneviene (P.M.S) turning back and stopping us from fighting, which was really so kind and thoughtful.. ^^ i thought they onli play so much, but i miss out the fact tt, they care for their friends around them... hey P.M.S, thank you to you all, either you all see it or not... ^^ gotten so many uneccessary trouble, and stress over CO.. haiz.. RAYMOND CHUA!! WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU!! this was in my head when i was taking the bus home just now... bus was empty, there's onli mi.. felt so lonely suddenly... was staring at the peaceful road from the glass and staring at the celing of the bus... Haiz!.....