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Blog Changed

2007-10-28T18:56:00.000+08:00

Hi Friends,
If you happened to come,
I had Changed My Blog, My New Blog uniform resource locator, http://aselfrealization.blogspot.com

see you guys! ^^

-Collections- VS -Appearance Change-

2007-08-22T18:37:00.000+08:00

Recently, i went to pack my cupboard and threw away lots of clothes which i don't wear.. Threw away some jeans that was new but out dated, as my mum think that it's a big big waste so we packed those clothes up either to donate or to give to others. While i was packing, i saw some of my clothes that i wore from CCA last time, actually took some pictures of them. And had flash back of how my passion for my CCA(Chinese Orchestra) grew, and those times my friends and i had and the friends i had now...

my First Serangoon sec CO T-Shirt

my First serangoon secondary POLO-Shirt

This was when i went for an audition in annual music camp and got in.. And i gotten this T-shirt from them.. lots of things happen during this period too..

As SrsCO evolved.. Reaching Secondary4 we had our new design.. and this is our new CCA Shirt!

After which we graduated and leave srsco and came back as alumni and this was our shirt design.. Currently, alumni of srsco is are not active at all...

Guess it was becoz, srsco is falling apart?
I really hope alumni of srsco who happens to read my blog, that AFTER EXAM, must be after exam, maybe we help out again to bring up the glory of srsco again.
I maybe working, however i will try very hard to put in time to call or ask how is srsCO and see the days i can to help out and i know some of you out there are not working maybe can put in time and a little effort too.

Well, as my passion for CO grew.. when i was like sec3 going sec4 i guess... i went to join CSCO.. initially i was coping like mad and wanted to give up.. however, i told myself, "without challenge i will not climb to a greater height"... so i treat it as a challenge to me, and fought all the way to now...

I've been a member of CSCO (Echoes Of The Valley Chinese Orchestra) for 3 over years...

Whether to stay and continue down this path??... i dun know too...

When i first got in i got this t-shirt.. (Xia shi qin Cao di), i was coping madly while practising the music...

Next is.. (10years memories thingy.. opps i forgotten what is this concert about.. =x )

I was already in Cs for about 2years when i got this shirt...

and the shirt i got now... was the recently concert... (conductor exchange with hu bin xu laoshi)

that was how i grew in Chinese Orchestra and got more closer to it.... A taste of memories while packing my cupboard...

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Well well, recently i went to cut my hair.. shorter than before... and i got a newer appearance... so not like mi... dun like my new hair... eeeyerr....

This was the pic i took before i cut my hair....

AWWWW.. sad... nvm i will build back my hair style again..!!! all becoz of that stupid exam!!! haiz....

JYJY for exams my friends who read this post!!! ^^

-The end-

My opologies

2007-07-30T22:16:00.001+08:00

Sorry bloggy friends.. sorri for not updating.. i am too busy wit project.. lots of dust flying at my blog now.. -_-" just stress.. sorri... once all my stuffs are done i will continue to blog... so sorri... will share wit you all juicy stuffs nx time.. ^^

HEY ALL MY BLOGGER FRIENDS

2007-07-12T11:38:00.000+08:00

SO SORRY THAT I DIDN'T UPDATE.. RECENTLY MY COMPUTER AT MY HOUSE WAS BURNT (CAO TA).. SO CANNOT UPDATE..
TO ESP: SOH HUISHAN, SEAH XINXIAN, ANGIE GOH, LI LIYI, NURSE AMELIA, DANIEL TAN, GENEVIENE TAY, THOR JIAWEN, ALEX SHIEH,TOH HONGYI, VIVIAN KOH, DEREK NEO, NYPCO FRIENDS.. AND ALL PPL WHO TAG MY BOARD.. PLS CONTINUE TO TAG MY BOARD AND KEEP IT ACTIVE SO THAT HOR.. WHEN MY COMPUTER IS OK, I CAN REPLY YOU ALL.. AND KNOW WHAT IS HAPPENING, WHEN I AM AWAY...
FOR 2WEEKS TIME LIKE THAT I WONT BE AROUND.. AS MY COMPUTER IS BEING FIXED DURING THIS FEW WEEKS.. THAT STUPID PEOPLE WHO FIXED MY COMPUTER DIDNT COME LEH.... SIANZ...
blogging from school of IT.. (nyp)..

Hey YO!

2007-06-23T17:05:00.000+08:00

Hey YO guyz!! i will be oversea for these 9 days.. so wont get to blog or update myself.. i will be flying off tonight 23June2007.. take really good care of yourself buddies!!! will be back at 2July07 ^^... flying off to sydney... TAKE CARE!!! ^^ will miss all of you all who read my blog!!!

Raymond says: "Take care buddy! ^^"

A trip...

2007-06-16T01:41:00.000+08:00

Maybe i was too tired, when i was taking a bath just now, i actually took the face form and apply them on my body... -_-"

Went to School for project today.. did not really get anything done during the project.. so i went to the Orchestra to meet my friend after that, as they will accompany mi to go submit a Form to "ngee Ann Kongsi" hoping to get that award.. cause got $$ lol... This are some photos taken during Orchestra...

Look at how Xinger at the right is so serious teaching Sherryl Soh at the left...

Gals playing percussion, wow, so cool!! haha

So Sherryl, Liyi and Wanyi, accompany me to submit the form... That place was located at somewhere near Dhoby and they had to accompany to walk to that place under the hot sun.. so i had to thank them sincerly for their effort... ^^ lol..

Next we went to plaza Sing... and decided to watch movie.. however lik ended up going to Singapoer river, sit down and chit chat.. it was really quite a nice day... However, we really walk alot today and talk alot... This whole day lasted from.... about 1530 till 2300.. wow it was long!!

Here are some picz we took... at Co and at the Plaza Sing.. looks quite stupid...

She look so -_-" in that "earPhone" and still wan mi to take her photo..

And HERE are CO picz... Photo Gazing....

Wanyi and Mi..

ER Mei Jie and Mi

. .... ... . .... ...

Eunice and mi...

Liyi and mi de pic is on her digital cam.. lol...

a.... ok that should be all for todae.. good nite.. and thank you friends for accompanying mi todae!! ^^

Happi Ending?

2007-06-11T23:24:00.000+08:00

Having a very terrible time planning the intensive music training camp proposal.. at last today is the last day of the camp.. and all had end... despite very little ppl cooperate with mi in this camp, and i felt so useless as this camp but i am still relieve and happy that i had clear one stuff.. to mi this camp was consider not quite successful, felt useless as many do not want to follow my timetable which i planned for so long.. but what can i do, it's their choice. no matter what they do, as long as all members of NYPCO are happy and that they are consistent in music i am happi ler ^^... another thing i felt so useless is that, why do i get so afraid when it is a solo part i am playing.. why?!!.. why i can't play the solo well.. after 3yrs of practise in erhu.. i still can't do well.. Looked down on myself... wasted my family's money in erhu personal lesson.. maybe just lik what my friends said, i am just plain stupid.. LOL.. thats why i played so lousy in solo... and get so nervous when playing solo.. useless... just to tell my dearest friends who read my blog post.. i am not emoing or what in this post.. this is purely just how i felt bout myself.. ^^.. felt so much better letting it out.. may not get the time to update again.. maybe? may be not...

New SOngs

2007-06-09T00:48:00.001+08:00

This is quite an old songs by a band A1... I quite like this song.. so would like to introduce this song to people who comes to my blog.. just click at the link "Old School Shoes Links" go under music player and play.. ^^ hope you guys like it.. ^^

A request By a Friend ^^

2007-06-08T00:39:00.000+08:00

here a request from you to show you.............. a pic that i want to descript myself.. LOL..

lol.. dun mind ar.. haha... ^^

reply to a person...

2007-06-06T23:49:00.000+08:00

JUST SHUT THE FK UP!

First Met, first impression-

2007-06-06T23:37:00.000+08:00

Met xx friend today.. well he was kind of fun, so guess xx had met her Mr right ler.. so xx i agree to 许配 (xu pei) you to him.. HAHA.. i am too bright for them today, went with them to see the voice out concert and the sound system was so terrible!! luckily there's samantha to accompany mi.. else i will really be too bright!! LOL.. and CONGRATULATION Geneviene for getting FIRST!! so happy for her!! yeah!!!

Whatever.. i will spill it out then..

2007-06-05T23:55:00.001+08:00

Let me make it clear to you, i am not unknowingly treating people mean or anything.. i know how am i treating other people, and i dun need you to teach mi how to do things. thank you. And so sorry that you cannot treat mi like transparent because i am in your project group, why must you stick to this group, you are making mi so difficult to do things. i cannot even concentrate on my project. i thought of switching group, but a pity, they thought it was because i want to avoid you. but the answer is no, cause i dun want you to affect my project. why do you just wants to stick with ppl who benefit you.. and not stick to ppl who treats you well.. yes this is part of my thinking.. but.. just reflect to yourself.. another thing i wanna tell you is that, i dun see you treating other ppl well.. in fact, speaking the truth i find it disgusting to see you treating ppl well, which was lik "acting".. If possible, i wish you will disappear from CSCO, from NYPCO and from my class!!! else it will be mi who disappear just as you wishED.. i dun see happiness with you around, you are affecting mi.. c'mon right now i am also wasting my time replying your post.. which i am suppose to be studying.. i kept on telling ppl i want to study.. in the end i study nothing.. thinking of just your name makes mi dun wanna study and wanna sleep.. or watch tv.. so i cannot help not thinking of you appearing in my mind, because you are everywhere within my life.. There's going to be two tests, considered impt.. and what am i doing now? not onli i affect your studies k, you also affect mine.. you made mi think that you are ambitious and your solo doesn't sounds pres ant to mi.. despite its nice for others but not for mi.. THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I USED THE MOST TERRIBLE TONE I HAD EVER USED TO PEOPLE. this is not to get your 同情 but just to let you know, that my eyes are watery after posing this... pls make it be the last time my eyes are lik tt.. and also dun post anymore at your blog.. and i will not go to your blog unnecessarily just to find out what's in your mind.. you can hate mi now.. cause i am just treating you in this manner.. sorry again if i affected your solo.. but since you think that i am a stranger.. just treat that you are blowing for the ppl you know... or you can treat mi as worst than a piece of shit i dun mind anymore.. and i dun think you are helping yourself... GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nothing Turns out well

2007-06-04T20:23:00.000+08:00

I may not get to have the trip...
Half dead, wanna went home straight to die.. On my way in the bus.. Liyi called and ask mi accompany Amelia and her for dinner.. So i asked xinxian who was on board the bus with mi to accompany me..
Went to a coffee shop near hougang plaza.. and Liyi forced mi to eat the chicken skin -_-"

Nah.. proof... evidence..

here's a pic of the Cheerful in full moon de Amelia..

Next is Liyi and xinxian's back view.. dotz... her back view like GHost...

dun feel happy.. hope to cheer up by myself soon, i am also very sensitive to the words ppl speak to mi now. feel even more stress.. lee Yi xianz (Kanasai person!).. ARGH!! Felt comforted abit because i still got Angie, Daniel, Liyi, Xinger.. "xinxian?", Jia Wen, Chia Sin... and the rest.. of the NYPCO members who are standing up for mi.. ^^ (Sorry if i forgot to mentions some names, it does mean i forget you.. but is too much ppl to mentions.. i just hate mentioning names..)
Ok and that should be all.. may update again bah..

-Lost Control-

2007-06-03T23:38:00.000+08:00

Just dun know why everything you do irks mi.. i also dun know.. pls dun make mi to be lik so evil, i am just like anyone out there.. a human being i got feelings too.. indeed i get disgusted, angry, irritated and even dun like to hear a sound coming out from you.. what had you done to mi?? i felt so evil, why must you do this?? why must it be you who make mi feel disgusted, irritated and angry.. and made mi lost control... I thought this kind of situation would end.. but.. you made me hope it would not end... I remembered you told mi you do not like to attend concerts, and i was wondering why must you come?? you spoilt my mood.. and i spoilt your mood too... was relieve that you did not tag along to eat.. else i maybe the one taking MRT home.. i got difficulty talking to you.. even if it is political reason, i would also try not to talk to you.. cause i dun wan to talk to you or see you.. you feel terrible??.. yes i always suan you always hurt you hor, but i just cannot forget somethings... Please dun be too good to other ppl, it really made mi think that you are just acting.. maybe.. YEs YES, i am evil.. again i said stupidd things.. i said things not suppose to be said.. but this is my post.. can't i just throw everything out.. My test is coming, and indeed, you have made mi lost all my concentration in my test.. and even my music.. dun believe? i am suppose to be studying today.. but because i had a small discussion with joanne about you, and i really lost my mood to study.. not because joanne sae bad things.. she was nice to mi and she talked nicely to mi.. but its the mentioning of your name... i just touch my book and went to bed till now.. so in the end i read nothing.. and study nothing.. dun even felt like touching my erhu today.. my Year1 self is losing, i become lazy and almost bonkers... i may be mean to let you taste your own medicine, but i am human.. i am also affected by you.. and dun anyhow sae die die die... if you think its so fun to die, then why do you still come to school and study like mad..
for my buddies who read this, i know i am mean, so evil, but please understand... i am just typing out all my feeling to this post.. i am sure you all know what kind of person am i...
-Stress To The Core- who dun emo.. and why must emo hit mi.. stupidd... i am so stupidd.. yes it is correct that i am scolded stupidd...

Is Heaven Creating a Prank on mi??

2007-06-03T00:53:00.000+08:00

Went to see SYCO concert today, and saw some one i don't wanna see.. Said some mean things and gotten scolded by liYi.. it just seems that whatever i do is in the wrong like that.. no one is there to stand by me at all.. sometimes even liyi also dun wanna stand by mi... my big sis is busy so i dun wanna trouble her.. so i felt like i am all alone standing by myself.. felt sour in my heart, i may be straight forward but thats what in my mind.. at least i am frank, but it seems that whatever i sae was lik i am in the wrong.. does it means i have to keep eveything by myself?? just wanna be frank and let out everything, and its so difficult.. trying not to be emo, as i got irritated by this word "emo".. but i just feel emo, when it seems lik all is my fault.. Who will stay wit mi? who will believe mi? and why everyone can sae mi, but i cannot sae back?? WHY?? do i have to be bullied lik before?? i told myself i have to stand firm.. and no more history is going to repeat itself.. no more!! ARGH!!
went to Lao Pa Sa, and ate a Roti Muturbak which is so small and not tasty at all, and cost 5 to 6 dollars each... and cheered up a little by the drink store uncle when i ask for the drink "Whatever"..
i said: "Uncle give mi Whatever..", the uncle took a bottle of Qoo and put infront of mi.. i gave a -__-" face, paid the money and walk away with the drink laughing.. he really gave mi Whatever..

Here a pic of the drink.. LOL...

However was still quite moody.. and feeling bluez.. so took out Sherryl's hand and my hand and gave a shot... to compare the buises we had.. LOL.. stupid.. can't imagine if we really stead.. WAH KAO A!!! i will become pokadots liao ar!! She so chor lor and have hongkong legs.. sia lar.. LOL..

Till i reach home.. i still don't feel so happy.. always thought that going out with friends will free mi from stress, however words from friends is even more stressful.. i better study harder, i am lagging behind.. WHAT HAPPEN TO ME!! RAYMOND CHUA YOU ARE A STUPID PERSON, YOU ARE SO SO SO STUPID!!! GO AND DIE LAR!!! ARGH!!!!

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2007-05-03T23:26:00.000+08:00

i have been slashed once years ago, its hard to imagine another slash again.. it took mi so long to heal.. although its heal, i can never forget how i been through all these.. never... so i will never allow another slash to mi... no more... not anymore.. i tried to ran away.. i tried to talk to you, try to make my face skin thinker.. however, when i see you, i really dun felt lik talking to you.. i can't think of how you changed, and how i changed.. many ppl kept on saying i am mean and that i hurt you, and that i said too mean stuffs to you.. saying that you are a gal and that i am a boy.. saying that its my fault and that i should apologise to you.. saying that i hurt you too much.. Yes, indeed i hurt you.. i wanna avoid the kind of feelings, i dun wan that kind of feelings that i felt before to come back to mi.. NEVER.. I tried to talk to you, after that incident.. but what you did??? you never give mi a chance.. when there's a chance to talk to you, its already too late.. cause i dun think the problems lies in mi... but in you! the way you behave towards this incident and the way you handle this incident taking things so so lightly and...... it made mi dun wanna talk to you... it made mi dun wanna see you!! it made mi totally mad mad and MAD! i am not saying it's your fault.. but i cannot suit myself to you.. you also cannot suit you to me... i dun wanna throw away years of friendship, but... i rather not met you.. i rather i dun know you.. i rather i am in another class.. yes, after reading this.. many ppl will say i am mean and its my fault.. however, i dun care what other ppl say.. just hope those that wanna read this respect me... i dun wan that feelings animore, i dun wan it to come back to mi... pls understand... pls... i am hurt too... i am scare very very scare of that feeling... never allow it to come back.. no way...

Episode Three plus some other stuff..

2007-04-27T23:25:00.000+08:00

here comes episode three...

you know what does this group lack?? that is the basic respect, the trust and the care plus concern between us... I remembered when i was in secondary three, everytime i hang out late with my friends of seven. My dad would be so angry with mi and scold mi lik mad.. i have curfews and therefore was controlled by my dad to be home latest by 6pm or 7pm... as i always go home early and could not hang out with them, they got irritated by mi as i was too sao3 xin4... I tried to explained this kind of stuff to them, without understanding and always think at their own stand, we broke up.. and just lik this i was out of the group... is this wat friends are suppose to be?? friends are suppose to be there for each others, care and show concern.. however, that time, my group onli care of playing playing and playing... WE ARE A GROUP OF SEVEN NOT AS FRIENDS BUT AS PLAYMATES.. i thought of sharing my feeling and unhapiness with this group lar.. but... all they care was play... this was what during that time i thought of about this group... there's still more to come...

more got disband later.. because of lacking those... well... it would be at the later part.. i actually wanna elaborate more on this episode three of my life... because there's still other stuff i wanna say.. so i stop here ler... episode four of my life will be about who got disband.. (QL, PS, YB, FH) <

====== End of Episode ======

here comes some more other stuff... was stuff up with friendship stuff again lar.. this are all unecessary stuff.. why must heaven just make life so difficult for people as in to make sure that friends must fight??

Why can we just concentrate on our school work and do well? why fight fight and gib cold war... making life so difficult??

i know there's sure lots of stuff to sae mi back.. ok so right now i am tell the two...

first Daniel, just because i dun wanna take a taxi home after hearing that its your treat and you are angry wit mi for so long? i sms you but you dun wanna reply, i told you that i will solve my own probs and that everything is soon going to solve ler.. i already get those documents ready and is getting them to joanne ler.. you will sae its not about that taxi thingy that you are so angry wit mi.. its that i everytime dun let friends treat and take all this treat too seriously?? well, its not the matter of treating or wat.. i can tell you i dun mind, its because i dun wanna trouble you, you will alight before mi, then you sae you wanna gib mi the money and next time then i return you back the change but during that time i find it unnessary, i got bus consection why can't i just take the bus home and you take the taxi.. i know you think of mi as your friend and wann to treat mi and help mi, but if you are fighting wit mi now and plus i am cope up with my financial prob, i will feel even more stressful right? Let mi here, apologise to you once again... and i hope to resolve this prob... the rest is up to you ler daniel... 6years... 1E to 4EB to poly... ...sorry.....

next.. Chujun.. your case between us is the most serious de prob... this one i will find time and make my face skin thicker to talk to you... how you wanna react will be up to you.. ITS ALL MY FAULT!

What am I Doing!! BLUR!!!

2007-04-24T21:32:00.000+08:00

i felt lik a piece of shyt!!! ARGH!! what am i doing!! i was trying eclipse and when i wanna delete the content i accidentally deleted all my folders!! my PICTURES, my IMPT FILES!!, my everything!!! ARGH!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! all gone.. then i even went to empty my recycle bin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i notice all gone!! all gone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What am i to DO!! no more pictures!!! no more!!! no more for geneviene!! no more for liyi, no more for Xinger and no more for tt sherryl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What am i doing!!! my impt files!!! SOB!!!!!

Because I am sTress...

2007-04-23T22:47:00.000+08:00

Think that it's because i'm stress, that i am suffering from constipation for 2weeks.. nothing come out from mi lar!! got stomache then nothing come out.. =.=" for two weeks ler... sianz.. then last night i was surfing the net then suddenly got the urge to pang sai then i was so delighted and over the moon!! i faster shout out for my mum to tell her lar! then i went to the toilet then faster sit down.. then you know what comes out!!!??? instead of pang sai i..... pang pui.................. =.=" wah piang a... so all the shyt business say finish ler.. sianz..

for episode3 see the response bah.............................. sianz.... dun felt lik typing now... HAHA ^^

Episode 2

2007-04-22T22:33:00.000+08:00

Here comes episode 2...

I still remember there was once, during NPCC camp.. the period where i was facing depression.. I was so sad i couldn't get to sleep and eat durnig camp.. i dun have the mood to play and stuff lik tt... My best friend actually together wit my other NPCC friends instead of comforting mi, actually even say things to make mi feel worst then ever.. My best friends, just changed his character lik no body business..

Ok, so i joined CO then get into Erhu.. there's a friend who is my classmate and also playing the same instrument as mi.. think tt time he was in the Zhonghu... also when i was secondary one, the first contact number that i gotten was his number... Since we're at the same section and can interact with each other well, i got to know his groups of friends.. and from a group of five turned into a group of six... then got one guy wants to know a gal from our group actually joined into our group, then become group of seven... I still remembered there was a guy, before i joined in was in this group, but after a fight he is not in this group anymore (wanna know who is this guy?). So this group of seven got so close, so close that we hang out together eveyday after school, and can actually hang out till so late.. everyday we play madly so mad and so happy... we splash water on each other and made ourselves wet all over.. i remember we even went to shops to purchase cold water after school and then starts pouring onto each others.. after getting to know this group each of us are so use to this group till we didnt even plan to get to know other friends.. Its lik we think that this friendships between the seven will be long lasting.. will be forever... so i get to know little friends and was consider anti social to others because i was so socialise with my "groups of seven" so didnt managed to make other friends..

However things just turned out otherwise!! its was lik 360 degree changes!! this group lack one thing!! and i didnt notice it at all NOT AT ALL.. it was because this group lack this thing that this group is disband just lik tt!! btw this group got Chujun inside..

---- The End of Episode2----

next episode will be about mi facing lots of prob.. because of this i realise so much things!! so much!! i even got hatred.. and so on and so for... got into annul music camp2004 and face lots of prob there... however i believe that its heaven will that i got into annul camp2004... because... episode 3 will sae...

think all this stuff is so boring lar!! you all still WAN Episode 3 to be typed here mehh?? you all really so interested find mi then i sae lar.. haha... haven thought of title for this story yet... haha.. nite ^^

"Tunder Storm"

2007-04-19T00:16:00.000+08:00

I always believe that its not right to write too personal stuff in a blog.. because i dun feel sercure about writing my personal stuff and put them to the intenet.. so i always put those more not really so personal stuff..

Tonight i decide to update a personal story of my secondary school life... its boring stuff.. but i just feel lik typing.. so here goes..

I joined NPCC when i was secondary One, during this NPCC life for one year, my attendance was full. i Even got promoted to lance coperal (one strip), however within this one year i never felt the feeling of happiness and was not even enjoying myself, in this NPCC life i even encounted betrayer and got to know that there's no true friends in life.. because even my best friend which joined the same CCA as mi, can just break our 4years friendship.. so i even got to depression, because i cannot quit. Soon through so much crying and struggling, asking my dad to help and talk to my teacher, i got "SACK" as my teacher said there's no such thing as quit onli SACK.. so i choose to be SACK.. despite getting over with my former CCA, i still had a strong feeling in life there's not true friends..

Through many of my friends which happens to be from CO, i get to know Chinese Orchestra.. Since i have no CCA why not, i give this CCA a try... thinking that this time i have to be smarter, because this CCA may also bring mi to another depression.. thinking that my friends who recommended mi to CO may not be trusted de sia... I joined this CO, teacher-in-charge said i can choose the instrucment i want. so i wanted to try DIZI initially, however teacher said DIZI got enough ppl so i cannot play.. then i say want to try cello, he said got not enough cello for mi.. then he ask mi to take erhu.. =.=" isn't this choosing for mi?? so i take up erhu..

i shall end my episode 1 here, later part will be about mi getting to know more about my classmates which is also playing huqin... got close and meet another group of friends.. then lots of stuff happens.. happiness, sadness and .... i started to change my view about having true friends.. and then ... ... ... haiz....

if the responses is good i will update episode 2 bah, else i dun update lerr.. ^^ waste of time onli... because onli today i felt lik typing, so response not good i also dun wanna type animore.. ^^ haha..

-----end of episode 1-----

about today, suddenly i kana scolded by daniel, which made mi realise, in life i have to make a decision as soon as possible and not being wishy washy and not settling it quick.. this made him got so irritated and started shouting at mi madly when i got wishy washy about Taxi!! Hello raymond!!! WAke up, stop being wishy washy!! Be a MAN!!! I AM A MAN!! or maybe a BOY!!

when daniel started scolding mi, i saw Liyi, XingEr, Geneviene (P.M.S) turning back and stopping us from fighting, which was really so kind and thoughtful.. ^^ i thought they onli play so much, but i miss out the fact tt, they care for their friends around them... hey P.M.S, thank you to you all, either you all see it or not... ^^ gotten so many uneccessary trouble, and stress over CO.. haiz.. RAYMOND CHUA!! WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU!! this was in my head when i was taking the bus home just now... bus was empty, there's onli mi.. felt so lonely suddenly... was staring at the peaceful road from the glass and staring at the celing of the bus... Haiz!.....

-Toro Cards-

2007-04-12T21:21:00.000+08:00

Went to took a toro card quiz.. and found out i am...

You are The Star

Hope, expectation, Bright promises.

The Star is one of the great cards of faith, dreams realised

The Star is a card that looks to the future. It does not predict any immediate or powerful change, but it does predict hope and healing. This card suggests clarity of vision, spiritual insight. And, most importantly, that unexpected help will be coming, with water to quench your thirst, with a guiding light to the future. They might say you're a dreamer, but you're not the only one.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

My IQ test..

2007-04-09T23:08:00.000+08:00

Went to daniel's blog and do an IQ test.. heng ar.. i got IQ... thought my logic fail... but heng is not.. lol ^^

STRESS UP

2007-04-08T20:36:00.000+08:00

I AM STRESS! I AM STRESS! I AM STRESS! I AM STRESS! I AM STRESS! I AM STRESS! I AM STRESS! I AM STRESS! I AM STRESS! I AM STRESS! I AM STRESS! I AM STRESS! I AM STRESS! I AM STRESS! I AM STRESS! I AM STRESS! I AM STRESS! I AM STRESS! I AM STRESS! I AM STRESS! I AM STRESS! I AM STRESS! I AM STRESS! I AM STRESS! I AM STRESS! I AM STRESS! I AM STRESS! I AM STRESS! I AM STRESS!......

thats all for today...

-Stupidd Training-

2007-04-05T16:14:00.000+08:00

Got selected to go for a world skills training... since April 06 already started training, and this week still training some more... train and train... everyday 7 hours!!! wah liao... next week whole week got selection test... i actually wanna gib up, but my fren told mi to try try see see... haiz... dun think can make it, its all application... but i have to sae, i learnt quite alot from these trainings...
had a fight with chujun, aiya, small thing onli... will ok within a few months.. i also lazy to think so much...
Another news is that i got into the NYPco committee... currently a welfare of NYpco... LOL but do nothing de, i hope forever i got nothing to do, else i will not lik this co anymore if too many stuffs are given to mi.. HAHA.. lazy bum... haha
Also gotten back my results, am happy with it, but i will still continue to strive harder..
in order to clear those "spider webs" in my blog.. i updated this post.. HAHA ^^

-BEAUTIFUL SUNDAY- 12 DECEMBER 2006

2006-12-12T00:19:00.000+08:00

didnt know derek, angie, xinxian, the REST OF MY SRSCO schoolmates would come... doubled up the happiness would be that two of my IT0608 friends came to support this performance as well, clement and samuel... THanks Alot GUYS!!

a short description about my performance.... Was tiring and surprising... i was being alocated to be sitted at the front row... wat an experience.. the first thing i saw when i walk out to the stage was two of my IT0608 classmates, i settled down to get ready for the performance... i thought to myself, confirm no other friends would come to support this performance except those two friends.. Who knows, after the performance i didnt expected to see so many to come... wow... =)

I took some pictures of the esplanade... just to show you all how was the atmosphere is lik to be sitted on stage... especially at the front... trembling.. scary...

Sitting at stage facing up...

Sitting at stage facing front, facing audiences..

Being looked by the audiences...

Some photos Taken before the Concert.. =)

Xing Er and Mi...

Genevien and mi..

Nurul and mi...

Good nite!! BB

Wat an Experience

2006-11-25T02:43:00.000+08:00

i just reached home, taken a bath looking at the time now is 230am... i am glad i can reach home wtih the help of my mum and brother.. else now esther and mi would still be outside wandering around woodland... ... ...
today, i was being asked to relief at causeway point (woodland)... worked till1045pm and was so tired, esther and her BF was waiting for mi at the bus interchange, so i rush there immediatly to meet them.. after that her BF who stay at jurong east went home, so esther and mi who stay at hougang area took the same bus '161'... as the bus was going to leave the intechange, one of its' big tyre drop out and without notice the bus driver continue to drive for a few mins.. soon spark came out and cause fire... initially esther and mi didnt know about this it was when we smell smokes and even saw smoke coming out from the back of the bus that we started to notice that the bus we took actually CAUGHT FIRE!! i actually wanted to video the event down however the place was to dark so i couldn't video down wat a waste.. lol...
so esther and mi walked up one bus stop to wait for 161.. so we waited for bout one hour and tt time was already 1130... then suddenly got a transit uncle took the motorcycle up to the bus stop and told the whole grp who was waiting for 161 to go up one more bus stop because 161 will miss this bus stop and go to the next bus stop.. the whole grp 7 to 8 ppl went up that bus stop and in the end kana bluff TMD.. wasted our time waited for one more hour plus plus... till around 1245am.. then after that the rest of the grp cannot bear with it animore and took taxi home.. esther and mi, also veri unhappy decided to walk back to the interchange to complain... so we walk back to the interchange.. and by the time was 1am... we find the helpdesk and complain, then esther so cool she complian till so serious.. i was shock... then the helpdesk ppl ask us to take taxi and claim money frm sbs..
however both of us has not enough $$$ to take a taxi expecially at this kind of timing, 1am!! if we had the $$ we would have taken long ago... so esther called her dad to pick us home.. however her dad was working and was veri busy, so cannot come pick us up.. so in the end i called my big brother, then my bro go call my family... then my mum provide $$$ then my bro took $$$ and went to my house downstairs to wait for mi to help mi pay.. so we hail a taxi and i sent esther home first... and then follow by mi.... and this was a tired and stupid experience!!! okok time to sleep... ....

A picture taken after we compained to the sbs helpdesk ppl... at that time was 1am..
tired and sad faces.. haha

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long and useless day

2006-11-23T21:45:00.000+08:00

studying half way suddenly decided to pop in... because too many thing in my mind.. todae is really a long a useless day... meet 930 for marketing meeting, in the end for the whole two hour onli discuss about which company to choose for the marketing report.. stupid.. also discovered that whenever i am the one holding the meeting, xinxian will be the one that find faults at mi for nothing and normally all these faults was base NOT ON THE PROJECT, can see that she dun really wanna cooperate and be serious during my meeting... At other people's group she will be so so so well behave and so cooperative (this was according to my friend's group whom xinxian happens to be in tt group).. example lik my handwriting the letter 'i' instead of putting a dot on top of the 'i' I drew a circle on the top, then she also wanna critize and make a big HU HA out of it.. then all my members will join in the conversation and all will fight and side track... siao de lor.. -_-" imagine a little thing lik handwriting she also can say till lik tt, not to say other things (difficult to imagine SCARY)... ok then reaching afternoon was Java meeting, onli chujun and me completed the layout long ago.. and the rest of the members' layout still half way done.. so spent the whole day just doing the layout... so stupid... if lik tt again dun know how to complete the project.. i am working so to prevent having extra meetings, i pass up work on time.. however the other members all pass up late work.. lik tt sure got extra meeting and normally i can't attend those extra meetings... ........... argh!!

woot...

2006-11-22T21:20:00.000+08:00

today is a brand new dae... all my luck seems to come back... early in the morning yixian called mi.. he told mi that he took my java book and notes and he is returning mi (1st luck return), then i gotten into bus 72 and kelvin bought mi a water bottle, so my water bottle return (2nd luck)... Then all the cuts are healing too (3rd luck)... So it is considered quite a nice dae today... two more dae to a class test, i better get going to prepare myself for it.. tata...

ARGH!!!!!

2006-11-22T00:03:00.000+08:00

So stress so so stress.. had a stupid nonsense fight yesterday... gotten myself hurt with cuts all over for nothing.. stupid idotic asshole!! for nothing go touch mi... i may be weak in physical fitness, but that doesn't gives you the right to touch mi!!! asshole, piece of shit.. yes, i did fight back however it was the fourth time tt i really can't tolerate animore that i fight back.. So i dare to sae its not my fault, its your fault!! dun expect mi to forgive you or to forget this incident.. unless i see a change in character, or i rather not to have this kinda friend... i may talk to you but it is onli because we are discussig impt stuff.. but personal matters dun expect mi to talk.. dun you dare touch mi again.. else you will bear the full consequences!!
and today is also the most stupid and ARGHHHH day!!! because of the fight yesterday, my water bottle was spoilt it got dented... so no choice i change to another water bottle and that water bottle leak lik hell in my bag and all my books got wet and was torn and tattered... fk lar.. i got to thank my brother for helping mi dry them lar.. however all the notes so impt to mi, gotten crumble... i am so sad and mad!! its all because of that fking incident yesterday that result to this!! assshole! and just now when i got home after doing a project, i found out i left my notes and book at the school and i dun know which fking place have i left it!! i am so angry burning hot now!! WHO EVER DARE TO TOUCH OR IRRITATE MI AGAIN I AM NOT GOING TO LET HIM/HER OFF!! i got enough of all this nonsense already!!

STupID!!

2006-08-26T22:49:00.000+08:00

WAh liao.. just now actually typed a whold chunck of what happened today and so on.. then dun know what happen jammed and so on.. then whold chunck lost.. aiya lazy to type ler.. sianz.. will update my blog if got somthing interesting.. got to give todays' thingy a miss ler.. kaoz...

ok

bb!
good night!

A fool Of myself

2006-08-14T20:32:00.000+08:00

I was being appointed for a IT1193 presentation... When i first received this news, instead of feeling happy. I actually felt uncomfortable with it.. especially when i heard that my Html tutor, Ms tay told me that this time those being appointed was far more better then me.. it made me more stress only.. and so this afternoon was the day of my presentation, i went in to the Com lab 10 to present... When i walk in, i heard a tutor calling my name.. "Raymond.. are you Raymond group 8?" i said "yes"... then as i really took a good look at the surrounding.. i saw many many tutors, mr Simon seetoh, ms teo loo see, ms wong, ms tay and lots tutors and big "heads" there.. some i dun even know them.. i started to tremble.. then i told myself, "a, relax... talk to myself onli" When i was going describe my auction functions, before i even have a chance to speak, mr simon said.. "hey, your concept is wrong what.. how can there be quantity available in an auction.." then i started to panic and said.."oh.. its because i have no experience, i am not quite sure what is suppose to be in an auction.." then at that time i already thought to myself.."opps minus marks.." as i tremble through my auction function.. i started to describe my searchbox functions.. WT... when i click go... the external window that will show those various search engines just won't pop out... WT... ARGH!! i kept on clicking and click... it just wont come out.. then Mr simon said "ok.. can already.. you may go out.. thanks.." i smiled and said thank you... hands still trembling... and i walked out of the room......

Maple Fever

2006-07-27T00:08:00.000+08:00

Just finish another exam yesterday, which is communication skills.. two down, but there's still more to go..
Also completed alot of quizes, however there's also more to come.. maths quizes and java quizes.. ARGH!! stress.. i'm sure all Info-tech students in nyp will feel stress like me... especially after reading this first few paragraphs.. hahaz..

besides exam, i'm quite addited to Maple nowadays.. Expecially whenever i level up during maple, my fingers will start to get itchy and my little devil in my mind would say,"Raymond ar, play maple leh.. level up again leh.., will become more powerful leh..." oh no, what should i do!!

look at this picture below..
a picture taken when i level up.. haha..

felt happy but guilty too.. because during that time.. i'll be having a test a few more days later and i'm still playing.. heez

Maple fever is now in me.. hit 100 degrees already...

all maple thingy just came to my mind whenever i tried to study..
look...

all these images just flew to my mind...

i better concentrate on my studies first before i think of playing..

But then, playing maple for a while won't hurt lar.. hahazz.. aiya, devil's in my mind again.. =0
opps.. haha

kk tired liao shall end here

bb..

Some "Cute" Picz

2006-07-25T18:01:00.000+08:00

Took some photos.. during our meeting today.. aand actually found out a few funny pictures.. haha so wanna share it with you!

Presenting picture number 1:- (Taking out the phone)

Presenting picture number 2:- (Pasting the phone on the head)

hahaz..

presenting picture number 3:-

drew by chujun and written by lucy...

Presenting Number 4:-

drew by mi!! The evil piggy!

nice hor?? ok lar, i know not nice lar.. haha..

this is mi during maple.. haha, all bluez..

Ok last photo.. also the photo of today's post.. also the cutest and funniest..:-

Ester's flat face picz.. haha.. even though no releated to today's meeting.. however, it is the cutest and funniest photo i had.. haha..

tired liao.. update again!! =)

bb..

WeLcOme!

2006-07-24T19:31:00.000+08:00

Welcome, a few of my friends to my blog! Yati and Kelvin!! =)
Well, hope you all dun mind that my blog is too "outdated"..
with the "oldies" erhu song..
Welcome to my world of erhu music!

tired liao..

bb

What are Friends For?

2006-07-16T22:09:00.000+08:00

For Those Who don't have any friendship problem right now, can don't read waste time only lar..
Erhmm.. What are friends for?? Have you all ever ask yourself this question? After so many years of "living", making so many friends around us.. Then.. What for?? Make so many friends?? What are friends meant for??
well, normally scientifically saying hor... We make friends to keep ourself out of loneliness, and also of course when we have our darkest secret the first thing we want to do will be to share with them...
okay intro finish liao.. now comes the impt part liao...
So main point will be, we make friends to keep ourself like "happy" and not to feel sad mah.. so why must friends quarrel and make each other sad.. That will break the rule of making friends already... hor??
Then worst still, when the quarrel can't be stop, HARTED will result in the end... Why?? it is No use putting a hate inside your heart one... it will only make the life of yours more unhappy.. agree?? maybe no, may yes.. but don't forgot, "ONCE A FRIEND"... Can this End...
Restart?? i know its difficult.. but if both try to restart and actually agree to settle, i'm sure all this will be over one... what are friends for??.. If each parities trys to put away the HARTED, all will BE OVER SOON...

sianz.. today blog extra thing..
(do i sound like someone when i keep on hor hor hor...) =l

bb

Presentation day (2)

2006-07-11T22:16:00.000+08:00

Woo, today specially woke up early just to "make-up". hahaz, i'm doing all this is because of my presentation at later of the day..
today was also counted a hot weather lar, then somemore i wear two shirts. Therefore, i perpires a lot.. Some more today so many people said i dress like AH peH... wa kao.. wasted my time this morning...
Ok important part lai liao... So after waiting for two person to present finished, it is my turn to present!!!
ok, i was shaking, i can felt that my both my hands harden and was freezing cold.. dotz..
i was presenting about erhu..
ok so everything when on as per normal till,....
when the part where it was demo time.. to demo erhu music to my class.. oh, OMG... hai.. my hands was so "harden" till i play out that piece of music till it became so awful... argh.. die.. minus marks...
ok and so after my presentation ended...

ok so i'll end here liao.. woo shack...

ok..
bb...

There's nothing i can do now...

2006-07-08T17:21:00.000+08:00

Waking up with a yawn, i stretched my hands and blah blah blah... I headed straight to school for my marketing meeting.
As usual i thought everyone would be late for this meeting, so i choose to be late.. Who knows the person whom i think would come the latest actually arrived the earliest, er... or maybe the earliest to reach the south canteen... =p
Ok, here comes the most important part, because i don't want conflict to happen and thus in the end my tagbord flood... so, i Qiang Jiao Dai Wan Jiao Dai sumone not to link my blog le.. hai..
however don't know what actually happened during this meeting, another sumone told me, she managed to got into my blog, because a sumone link me!!! ok, Now, let me get this clear, i create this blog is merely only for my friends close to me, friends whom i believe in, to read my blog.. to share my feelings with.. so please if YOU got link my blog please DON'T link me now.. thanks.. really i will appreciate it... I'm not angry.. im juz like feeling abit upset, i'm not blaming you... it okie lar, dun let this happen again next time... =)
tnks...

my fingers are tired now..

bb...

Presentaion Day (1)

2006-07-04T21:17:00.000+08:00

This afternoon was IT1110 presentation(1), though i wasn't the one who was presenting because i am suppose to present next week presentaion(2), I was actually feeling nervous for my classmates.. My whole hand was like freezing cold and i can even see my "hand hair" standing up! (as usual lar). Everyone would know it is not easy to stand out in front of the class and talk confidently to each and every one of our classmates, however, all my classmates pulled through this presentation.. woo..
Those who know my classmate Cj, would know she is the kind that is quiet and would not like to talk much. Also, does not like to share point of view to the public, however, today.. She plucked up her courage to talk in front of the whole class.. Her presentation was very well done, and teacher even praise her!
From today's presentation, i got to learn one point..

Even though, you may think you are always "this"... However, when situations arise, you may even forget you are "this"... (wierd phrase?...).. (because it is a broken English...) haha..

This phrase applies to all of us.. Think about it.. does it reflects to you?
i got to know that a person's characters will change according to situation and surrounding.. people often think that once he is like "that", he will be like "that", however his character may change and he is not even aware of it..
ok, I'll shall stop here..

bb..

\\...Reasonz...//

2006-06-24T19:42:00.000+08:00

The reason for not blogging for quite sometimes is because lots of assignments is waiting for me... lots and lots of it!!! ARGH!!
go back do assignment now..

got time tag mi worz..
tired liao..

bb... =)

I Got To Promise Myself...

2006-06-21T23:57:00.000+08:00

after this evening's incident i'd made a promise to myself..
i went for CO this evening, then some people was asked to perform in old folks' home...
I was the choosen one, choosen to play erhu... and only two erhu was choosen... so erhu could be heard quite clearly...
The songs given looks simple, but i can't even play out one song completely...
oh.. i was so disappointed with myself...
So disappointed...
so i made a promise to myself just now that i must clear all those songs given no matter what..
I MUST PUT IN ALL MY BEST!!!!! AR!!!!
.....

tired liao... sweet dreams... =)

bb...

Just For Your Info.. hahaz

2006-06-19T18:37:00.000+08:00

Lai Le Lai Le!!!
Photos are out.. woo!!!
hahaz..

tired liao.. hahaz

bb...

trip to east coast..

2006-06-18T23:05:00.000+08:00

This evening, i went to east coast with joyce ...
long time never go out liao... hahaz.. i thought it was time to destress too...
so went there to destress, so many assignments with me on mind.. so stress...
i guess same goes to friends around me too...
time for you all to destress too... hahaz..
Relax, is the thing you should thinking about often... =P tired liao...

nite.. bb...

Juz Came Back from An exciting bbQ, because sumthing happens....

2006-06-16T15:38:00.000+08:00

Just woke up not long... so i decide to post an interesting story of this BBQ.. in case i forgot.. haha..
When i first reached the chalet, i was like blur blur... Dun know what to do..
Then out of a sudden, my "mdm" ester instructed me to bbq to serve the people.. I was glad, because there was something for me to do liao.. So i started to BBQ for my classmate..
The heat was intense, wah kaoz.. at the end of the day, i'm filled with bbq smoke and smell... whole body was oily too.. felt so uncomfortable.. luckily ester lend me her shampoo and stuff to shower..
However, thinking back to just now the time where i bbq for my clasemates, instead of feeling something negative, i felt so happy to bbq for my friends... Also was with JianDa's and Brandon's help too...
this time compare to last time our first IT0608 bbq, this second bbq was confirm a Better One...
okie i better go to the most interesting topic liao.. no one will believe it.. but quite many of IT0608 guyz saw it... haha..
wei keat went for a wedding dinner, therefore he arrived very late... so when he came, we gave him a surprise by singing him a bdae song in the dark.. hahaz..
Next we play a game call guessing the number.. and think Wei keat keyed in no.56 and yanqi, the lucky gal got it correct.. so dun know is suay or lucky.. She got to be forfit to feed Wei Keat the cheese cake through her mouth.. in another word is mouth feeding lar, hahaz.. and she really did it!! hahaz...
hahaz.. both of them fed each other with their eyes close siaz.. so romantic leh... haha.. i even took of photo of them kissing (mouth feeding cake).. some more this photo is mouth touch mouth one leh.. wa kaoz.. i can't believe this picture.. next brandon took the cake and smash it onto Wei Keat face..
It was the most funny and fun night i have spent with my class IT0608...
I will post those pictures and rest on a later date.. interested to see the "kissing" photo?.. wait bah.. soon i will post them.. hahaz..
alot still happened after that.. guess i have talk enough le..
hahaz.. gtg.. so funny experience sia................

bb... =)

Haiz.. so stress..

2006-06-15T01:41:00.000+08:00

holiday is like a "no holiday"..
so stress up with my work.. so many things to do..
haiz..
this whole morning i did nothing but sleep.. hahaz.. so i felt a bit guilty at nite.. so i decided to a bit of my homework during nitez.. hahaz..
just do finished...

sianz.. go sleep liao.. heez..

bb.. =p

IT1193 Project dayz again...

2006-06-13T17:12:00.000+08:00

On my way heading to school i was thinking: "aiya, they will surly be late one late lar"..
So I thought why not I try to be late for 5 to 10 minutes... However, I'm not late in the end... wierd...
20mins after the time that we planned to meet up which was 10am, everyone reached...
I was thinking not so bad after all, only 20mins late... Then drag till 11 plus plus am... and meeting starts...
As per normal, till now not one meeting goes on smoothly... Got fight and shouting and ... Maybe I'm not cut out to be a leader, because i always got fustrated with my group members... I'm impatient, the more i try to be patient, the more i can't do it...
Stupid me... cannot even get one thing correct, always wait till being scolded by any one of my group members, then i try to correct things up... However, I like my group, because something will be done eventually at the end of every meetings...
Maybe being a leader, he cannot be too straight forward..
cannot always scold people, cause it will make people angry...
Maybe being a leader, he cannot be too confident with what he is going to say.. because it will cause unnecessary troubles...
Tired liao... talk finish liao...

bb.....

My First Time Trying To Create My Online Diary

2006-06-13T14:54:00.000+08:00

I still remember, my first blog was shared with Joyce...
However, without the help from Chujun, that blog of ours would not come out so well eventually...
She is a great creater of blog pages...
Now, i can create my own blog already!!!!!
Since I study IT course now, therefore, i try to create a blog by myself...
Hope it works!! :p

bb..... good nite!!!!