emo :: mood swings

Thursday, May 03, 2007, 11:26 PM

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i have been slashed once years ago, its hard to imagine another slash again.. it took mi so long to heal.. although its heal, i can never forget how i been through all these.. never... so i will never allow another slash to mi... no more... not anymore.. i tried to ran away.. i tried to talk to you, try to make my face skin thinker.. however, when i see you, i really dun felt lik talking to you.. i can't think of how you changed, and how i changed.. many ppl kept on saying i am mean and that i hurt you, and that i said too mean stuffs to you.. saying that you are a gal and that i am a boy.. saying that its my fault and that i should apologise to you.. saying that i hurt you too much.. Yes, indeed i hurt you.. i wanna avoid the kind of feelings, i dun wan that kind of feelings that i felt before to come back to mi.. NEVER.. I tried to talk to you, after that incident.. but what you did??? you never give mi a chance.. when there's a chance to talk to you, its already too late.. cause i dun think the problems lies in mi... but in you! the way you behave towards this incident and the way you handle this incident taking things so so lightly and...... it made mi dun wanna talk to you... it made mi dun wanna see you!! it made mi totally mad mad and MAD! i am not saying it's your fault.. but i cannot suit myself to you.. you also cannot suit you to me... i dun wanna throw away years of friendship, but... i rather not met you.. i rather i dun know you.. i rather i am in another class.. yes, after reading this.. many ppl will say i am mean and its my fault.. however, i dun care what other ppl say.. just hope those that wanna read this respect me... i dun wan that feelings animore, i dun wan it to come back to mi... pls understand... pls... i am hurt too... i am scare very very scare of that feeling... never allow it to come back.. no way...